at least for the time being..
Sebelum saya meroyan, saya nak letak gambar la:
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Dalam rumah ni WAJIB ada pasta - macaroni, spaghetti, linguini. Pastu wajib ada - garlic granules, oregano leaves, mixed herbs, dll. Semalam buatkan macaroni with tomato paste + squids. Tak tahu nak bagi nama apa sebab resepi sendiri. Adeh.. dah la posa ari ni dengan crime partner.
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Anak teruna saya ni memang ikut betul citarasa ibunya. Kalo pergi makan² tak susah nak pesan makanannya. Cari je masakan yang ada pasta. Gerenti dia makan punya.
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Ok! Abaikan tatabahasa + susunan ayat luahan perasaanku ini. Tersangat cacatnya. Sambung meroyan... among my dreams are to:
Work
It has been 2 times I've tried to get back to work but failed due to the admittance of Syafiah in the hospital. The 1st one was a very high pay. However, her shunt was infected. I've no choice but to quit as it was the longest stay in the hospital. We've been in the ward for 12 days.
The 2nd one was with a friend. This friend of mine is a principal to my daughter's kinder now. I worked there for a while. Syafiah returned to the hospital. After discharging, she was continuously vomiting. I've to take care of her at home. Quit again.
After that, I realized that my life wouldn't be the same anymore. I was a very hard worker. Perhaps a workaholic! God sent me signals several times and I understood them very well. When I take care of my daughter by myself, she's fine. The shunt is fine too. Allah swt knows the best for both of us! I'm slowly learning the fact that I've to stay at home for the time being. Dok rumah pun kerja jugak.. unfinished business!
Study
I really want to be a student again. Recently, I met my old buddies - Anis, Ainuddin, etc. Anis is a friend from the same IPT. She is planning to continue her Master, while Ainuddin is in UK furthering his study too. Ainuddin was my school classmate.
This feeling hits me again until every night my friends would appear in my dreams, wearing uniforms. The scenes are in my old schools and an institution where there are so many students passing by.
Dear partner, if you ever read this, I've always said to you, in my giggles and my laughs, that I want to further my study especially in oversea. Perhaps you're not aware how true it is.
Have Our 4th Child
Every time I look into my children's faces and other babies, this hunch of having our new addition hits me again. I'm ready, but I realize that our pocket is not that ready. Perhaps my health is not ready too.
Oh! Ada lagi yang lain, cukuplah meluahkan perasaan. Tak semua benda boleh dicapai dalam hidup ini. Tapi tak semestinya saya akan terus melupakannya. Dan mungkin saja saya boleh memandang hidup ini dengan pandangan dari sudut yang lain. Ya.. sudut yang lebih positif! Mesti ada hikmahnya.
Tak kerja mungkin saja nak ada bisnes sendiri (who knows!). Mungkin Allah swt nak saya sendiri yang asuh anak saya, bukannya babysitter/maid. Tak study formal boleh study informal (like what I'm doing now). Permohonan secara lisan untuk hamil lagi ditolak mungkin ada hikmah lain. Mungkin kalau ada sekarang ni tak dapat tumpukan sepenuh perhatian pada Syafiah. Takleh la saya nak beat Glenn Doman cipta cara baru nak didik anak.. hehe. berangan! Banyak hikmah tersembunyi yang tidak diketahui.
Albert Einstein once has said, "Only a life lived for others is a life worthwhile" <-- ayat nak sedapkan hati sendiri.
p.s. : Ah! Daku terlalu memandang 'padang' orang lain. Sedangkan belum tentu ia baik untukku!
Sebelum saya meroyan, saya nak letak gambar la:
.jpg)
Dalam rumah ni WAJIB ada pasta - macaroni, spaghetti, linguini. Pastu wajib ada - garlic granules, oregano leaves, mixed herbs, dll. Semalam buatkan macaroni with tomato paste + squids. Tak tahu nak bagi nama apa sebab resepi sendiri. Adeh.. dah la posa ari ni dengan crime partner.
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Anak teruna saya ni memang ikut betul citarasa ibunya. Kalo pergi makan² tak susah nak pesan makanannya. Cari je masakan yang ada pasta. Gerenti dia makan punya.
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Suka betul tarik baju sampai nampak pusat.
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Gambar² Syafiah pagi tadi. Happy je dia sepanjang hari ni.
Ok! Abaikan tatabahasa + susunan ayat luahan perasaanku ini. Tersangat cacatnya. Sambung meroyan... among my dreams are to:
Work
It has been 2 times I've tried to get back to work but failed due to the admittance of Syafiah in the hospital. The 1st one was a very high pay. However, her shunt was infected. I've no choice but to quit as it was the longest stay in the hospital. We've been in the ward for 12 days.
The 2nd one was with a friend. This friend of mine is a principal to my daughter's kinder now. I worked there for a while. Syafiah returned to the hospital. After discharging, she was continuously vomiting. I've to take care of her at home. Quit again.
After that, I realized that my life wouldn't be the same anymore. I was a very hard worker. Perhaps a workaholic! God sent me signals several times and I understood them very well. When I take care of my daughter by myself, she's fine. The shunt is fine too. Allah swt knows the best for both of us! I'm slowly learning the fact that I've to stay at home for the time being. Dok rumah pun kerja jugak.. unfinished business!
Study
I really want to be a student again. Recently, I met my old buddies - Anis, Ainuddin, etc. Anis is a friend from the same IPT. She is planning to continue her Master, while Ainuddin is in UK furthering his study too. Ainuddin was my school classmate.
This feeling hits me again until every night my friends would appear in my dreams, wearing uniforms. The scenes are in my old schools and an institution where there are so many students passing by.
Dear partner, if you ever read this, I've always said to you, in my giggles and my laughs, that I want to further my study especially in oversea. Perhaps you're not aware how true it is.
Have Our 4th Child
Every time I look into my children's faces and other babies, this hunch of having our new addition hits me again. I'm ready, but I realize that our pocket is not that ready. Perhaps my health is not ready too.
Oh! Ada lagi yang lain, cukuplah meluahkan perasaan. Tak semua benda boleh dicapai dalam hidup ini. Tapi tak semestinya saya akan terus melupakannya. Dan mungkin saja saya boleh memandang hidup ini dengan pandangan dari sudut yang lain. Ya.. sudut yang lebih positif! Mesti ada hikmahnya.
Tak kerja mungkin saja nak ada bisnes sendiri (who knows!). Mungkin Allah swt nak saya sendiri yang asuh anak saya, bukannya babysitter/maid. Tak study formal boleh study informal (like what I'm doing now). Permohonan secara lisan untuk hamil lagi ditolak mungkin ada hikmah lain. Mungkin kalau ada sekarang ni tak dapat tumpukan sepenuh perhatian pada Syafiah. Takleh la saya nak beat Glenn Doman cipta cara baru nak didik anak.. hehe. berangan! Banyak hikmah tersembunyi yang tidak diketahui.
Albert Einstein once has said, "Only a life lived for others is a life worthwhile" <-- ayat nak sedapkan hati sendiri.
p.s. : Ah! Daku terlalu memandang 'padang' orang lain. Sedangkan belum tentu ia baik untukku!
